The Thought Never Goes Away

I'm tired of feeling this way.
my body is way to tired to feel your face.
the memory is still there in my way.
I want to erase everything I had with you.
I want to break this picture into pieces.
I bet you I wouldn't be able to if I had the chance.

You've moved on with your life.
I'm still sitting here in the cold.
the wind brushing my tears off the side of my face.
I'm stuck still wondering if you have ever thought,
thought about me, have you ever?

I know you have someone knew in your life.
Shes really pretty by the way, I hope you don't lie to her.
my heart is breaking every word I put down.
It feels like I can't do this anymore, I can't live.
I want to be with you so badly, I'm ready to hurt.
I miss our talks on the phone, the way you talked.
the way you sung the songs to me like a lullaby.

the way every night before we hung up, how we acted.
the way you told me I LOVE YOU.
I can still hear your voice in my head.
I can't bare this as long as I honestly thought.
you weren't there when I needed you the most.
you weren't around when I started to cry.
I was alone, with no one to help me.
you were my best friend, the one id run to.

now that you are away, gone.
you told me not to talk to you again.
not to even think about it.
but I can't, its not easy.
I can't leave you, I can't leave the feelings.
I don't want to run away.

I'll go to the bathroom.
sit at the mirror look at my face.
watch the tears roll down over and over again.
pick up the green razor.
ill think about it once again and again.
before I think of doing something stupid.

this is where I need you.
this is where I talk to you about this.
this is where You tell me you love me.
THIS IS WHERE YOU TELL ME EVERYTHING WILL BE OK.