Motionless

I sit on the floor crying
not knowing what to do
thinking of suicide
but my heart tells me not to
i pick up my razor
and shove it in my skin
dragging into my wrist
watching it sink in..
drip drop drip drop
hearing the blood hit the floor
drip drop drip drop
i must cut more
after the 25th cut
i sit motionless
my heart pounding, no more tears
my arm turning purple

-thats my typical day..full of fear.