Close My Eyes

The night time is hardest
When I lie in my bed
I try to close my eyes
But so much was left unsaid

I can't sleep at night
When lonliness fills my heart
I try to close my eyes
But I wonder why we are apart

Tears roll down my cheeks
When I think about us
I try to close my eyes
But I can't do that without a fuss

My body starts to tremble
When I realize you are gone
I try to close my eyes
But I saw this coming all along

The pain in my hear is numbing
When I connect our memories to this qoute
I try to close my eyes
But I can't forget that one note

I wish you were here by my side
When I cry about tomorrow
I try to close my eyes
But I am only filled with more sorrow

I dream I will see you soon
When I know it would just be the same
I try to close my eyes
But I miss, so much, saying your name

I ask myself to many questions
When I have no response
I try to close my eyes
But this is becoming a nuance

I risk too many obligations
When you are not here
I try to close my eyes
But I am still full of fear

I pretend that I don't miss you at all
When I know a lie is wrong
I try to close my eyes
But I continue to replay this song

To forget the circumstance is out of question
When I recall those words you spoke
I try to close my eyes
But I feel like this is a big joke

The sobbing comes to an end
When reality start to click in
I try to close my eyes
But I still didn't win

Happiness is no where to be found
When I am thinking about you
I try to close my eyes
But nothing is ever new

By: Natalie Rzepecki