I'm just going to get straight to the point - I know I sent you a text message saying how much that cuddle meant to me on opening day for work but I couldnt eleberate what I wanted to say in a text message.
I've never had anyone who has said to me that they love me as though I was their own daughter. As you know, my Dad died when I was 2 and a big part of me has been missing since the day he died. I've never felt as loved by any male as I did when you first told me how you felt, I will admit, a big part of me felt a little wierd because like I said I've never had anyone say that to me before. But although I felt a little wierd, I was so happy to hear you say that.
After that big cuddle that lasted like 20 minutes on opening day Ian, I have actually learned to let my Dad go (which has been a problem for me for the last god knows how long) and move on. Your arm was around me and mine was on your shoulder, my hand kept slipping and you said to me You've been longing to cuddle me haven't you? being you're usual smart arse! Then you told Mark I think that I was like a daughter to you, and that's when it hit me... and that's when it felt completely right for me to tell you that I think of you and I love you like a Dad. For about 2 weeks before the opening day I wanted to tell you that but I couldnt find a time to actually talk to you.
The text message was just to let you know how much the cuddle meant to me. To have someone cuddle me the way you and love me the way you do, it feels amazing. I've never had a father and I've always wanted one, and now I have one. I have you Ian, and I love you. I never want to lose you. And I hope that one day if I ever get married, that you will walk me down the aisle.
To think I've known you what, 4 years... I never thought that we would have the relationship and friendship that we have today. It feels amazing. I know your kids dont want anything with you unless they want something off you, but even though we're not father/daughter by blood, I have always enjoyed your company and being around you, you always make me laugh and smile no matter what mood I am in and most of the time you make my day. You've always got some smart comment to say and I love that about you but what I love even more is the fact that you can also be serious. Not often but sometimes.
I'll leave you with this final note. I love you a lot, like a father. You look out for me, you care about me, and you'd do anything for me. I admire that and that means a lot. I love ya lots.
Lots of love now and always
Penni xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
