First i was angry with myself...
i thought you'd started to hate me all of a sudden...
i felt ignored and invisible...
no matter what i tried you never responded.
i knew you were talking to my friends on-line tonight.
i tried to say hello...but you continued to ignore
eventually you came around and spoke to me
thanks to a friend.
i was happy and yet sad at once...
you asked why i was sad... at once i told a lie
covered up with an I'm not sad just tired...how could i tell you i was sad because of you.
we talked and talked...you asked me why i was still loving you, you told me i needed help...such a painful blow...but you couldn't hurt me any worse.
and yet now...you've left me with an internal war...
which do i choose...my path to happiness...but which could also be the worst thing i could do to another..or do i just stay this way...let you go...and forever remain sad.
its an unbearable choice for me to make...how could you put me in the spot so fast. you've probably already read well into my heart and my mind...as you've proved you are still able to do.
now not only sad but troubled further than before...
who am i going to become...
so grateful for my newest friends...
they're greater than the old...all except for you...yet thats because I'm loving you.
