I Lost You

I don't want to remind myself
that I had the best guy in the world
but I let him go.
I act like I don't really care he's gone
but deep inside the pain is still there,
it just doesn't show.

Knowing that he's someone more than special,
that he can't be replaced.
Warm, unexpected tears
always come running down my face.

He is different from other guys,
I know I was somewhat blessed.
We've been together for how many months,
our love story was once the best.

Every minute with him I'm always greatful,
it's just unexplainable.
But now, I often say
"I had my chance, it's not anymore attainable".

I thought forgetting him can be difficult
but not as hard as this.
Baby love, it's torture
it's you whom I always miss.

Sweet things we do as a couple,
I doubt, it won't happen anymore.
Since you left, I don't find love
that interesting to explore.

Every problems we have,
you tell me, "i love you".
Then I realize no matter how big the issues are,
I believe we can make it through.

Yet this time it's different,
a part of me seems to be slipping away.
You decided to leave me,
but baby love, I'm always here to stay.

I don't know if I lost you or am I the one
who made the reason for letting my top priority go.
I kept thinking about it,
while crying and listening on the radio.

It's just hard to accept the fact
that I dissappoint myself and someone close.
My mind insists to forget about it,
but my heart seems to oppose.

We think differently,
yet we end up getting it at most times.
The chemistry that once sparkled,
for now can't seem to shine.

It's difficult to think how my days would pass
without you by my side.
I'm sure it would be agony,
might as well die through suicide.

But I don't want to end my life,
hoping you'll still turn around and come back.
Knowing you won't, I already lost you forever
it's faithfulness, I lack.

Always remind yourself baby love,
I love you so much.
Only every night in my dreams,
our lips can have the possibility to touch.

From the very start,
I appreciate all the things you've done to me.
I've learned a lot from you,
in this my heart and mind seem to both agree.

You were once my prince charming
and you still are.
We just need our happily ever after,
I can still wait, even after death,
you will always be the rightful owner of my heart.