And for the first time in a long time,
I cried.
I shed every tear held back
For any reason.
The tears just slid down my face,
I wipe them away.
And the wind chills my cheeks,
But they kept on coming.
I cried for her,
I cried for what we lost,
I cried because I was confused.
I cried for everything.
I couldn't let her go,
I was holding her deep in my heart.
Somewhere protected and safe,
But it ended up hurting me in the end.
I held her close to my heart,
That I expected her,
To show me that same emotion back,
But all that I received was pain.
I was scared to let her go,
That's what I thought it was.
But now I figured it out,
I was afraid of being alone.
I was afraid of losing
Another best friend.
To have someone else,
Forget me and move on.
And even though,
I tried everything
In the end,
I was alone.
That was what I dreaded,
I sat alone,
Thinking that everything was done,
I was now alone forever.
But something beautiful happened,
Some may believe it was a simple thing.
But in that one moment it gave me strength,
And I'm sure you didn't even realize it.
You looked at me,
You didn't look through me,
You stared me right on
Brown eyes to green ones.
You never asked me what was wrong.
You simply took a step towards me,
Arms wide open,
And enveloped me in a hug.
In that one moment,
Everything I felt was gone.
All the confusion and pain,
Was forgotten of.
You pull back,
And asked what was wrong,
I swallowed my tears,
And told you, nothing.
But I knew,
You were able to see
The lie that rolled off my tongue
You always could.
And once again,
You looked at me
And without words,
You said everything I needed to hear, from a friend.
And after all that
I had cried
For so many reasons,
I couldn't let go of.
I cried for everyone I lost,
And my confusion.
But after all the tears,
The answer was right there.
I wipe the tears away,
One again the wind,
Chills my cheeks.
But I never even felt it.
I smiled,
I laughed,
I thanked God,
For sending me, you.
