Gone away

When I'm alone
and i think of you
i wish i wouldn't
but i can't get through
i send you a message
you don't write back
it's feelings like these
when i feel stabbed in the back
i wish you wouldn't do this
don't you understand how it will make me feel
it leaves me insane
wishing none of this were real
at first it wasn't you
and i wouldn't let you get close to me
but now i miss you
and you're the only person with who i want to be
the first days were special
because to each other we were so new
but after the next weeks
the fights and tension grew
i didn't ever hate you
or do those things in vain
and i only wish you would listen now
because it's driving me insane
i never meant to hurt you
but at the time i was so young
i needed space around me
but it's no reason for what I've done
if i could take away
every single time i got it wrong
id make it all up to you
we've been apart far too long
every time i see your face
and every time i hear your voice
my body goes numb and heart goes cold
i wish i had another choice
i always want what i can't have
now you've become my obsession
these thoughts are haunting my mind
leaving me with a confession
i didn't want you to find out
but i did it to for you to know
because at the time i couldn't handle it
and all i wanted was for you to go
now that it's over
i wish it wasn't your best friend
now I'm ready for what you are
i don't want this to be the end
i hope you won't ignore me
because theres one last thing i want to say
just that i really do love you
before i go away
i want you more then ever
you mean so much to me
i only wish that baby
you'd come back to me