This feels like goodbye

I sit there across the room,
i know im staring at someone i love,
but she seems so empty
this girl feels lost,
i remember when i first met her,
no drugs on mind,
now we party hard,
the drugs every where i find,
not a day where there is not a drop of drugs,
not a day where she doesnt think of them,
it scares me,
watching this; the person that i love.
i know so many drama's are running through her mind,
but i remember when she delt with it,
and delt with it in time.
i love taking the drugs every now and then,
but i dont relie on them,
her party life never ends.
i remember when we would lay there,
talk about the past,
dream about the future
and wish that life wasnt over cast,
i remember her telling me
that she wanted to get a job,
she wanted to be independant,
be better then every one
be the one above,
i remember her goals in life this interest that she took,
i dont think i felt this way until
last night i took a look.
this girl i love so much seems like she is dying inside
she hasnt realised it,
but im scared that her soul may die.
every day i see her craving those drugs.
i think to myself how far will she go?
when things are getting to rough,
i dont want to push her away,
nor do i want to stand back i just want my best friend
to be her again.
take the drugs on weekends,
go get a job,
find a house she can call her own,
i need her to be a stone' strong.
i feel like i am saying goodbye to the person that i love
because every day seems as tho she is pushing me away just to have her drugs.
im sorry if this boring you,
but this is how i feel
i am loosing my love, my friend, the girl of my dreams.
she is still a perfect person with just alittle fault.
i wish i could change it. but tell me would i help?
sarah i love you with my entire heart. im just worried about you.
im scared you will fall apart...

THIS POEM IS ABOUT MY RECENT EX THAT I STILL SO ADORE. SHE IS MY WORLD AND I AM JUST WORRIED I JUST WISH THAT SHE COULD SEE THAT IM NOT HARRASSING HER. I JUST WISH AND WANT HER TO BECOME SOMETHING BETTER, DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE AND GET HER LIFE BACK ON TRACK.
I LOVE YOU SARAH WITH ALL MY HEART PLEASE DONT PUSH ME AWAY!