I know who i am, and what i am capable of. now i am a situation that overwhelms me. sitting here with my hands on my head trying to make sense of millions of thoughts. i push EVERYONE away, smile in one's face then after that they don't exist anymore. so here now, this entry turns into my vent.... i don't trust, words are words. i never really care bout anyone or anything. but now i do! numb is a normal feeling for me. its safe. unfortunately though i seem to care for another. i don't return calls to the others who have an interest in me. can't bring myself to play the games that i perfected over the years. but my gut tells me that i need to back off, cause if i am the one being played, then i will absolutely intentionally destroy this person to the point where they will NEVER EVER trust anyone else. i love my dogs, my bikes, and my bro. but there is a very dark evil side to me that only a few have seen. for years i walk toward the dark for my strength and knowledge. my head is spinning. i just hope that this person really understands just what i am made of. and to play me is only going to bring out something so horrible. it's so bad, it scares me!!!!
