Ohhh, Jenni...
I've been through the same things so many times, and I can honestly and completely understand your emotions. This touched me, and reminded me on my ups and downs...
I can't give you any advice, because I always just let all the feelings overwhelm me, without knowing what to do with them... Writing is the best vent for me, too.
I hope that you'll be alright.

Wow. This are my feelings completely. I can see myself written all over this poem.
Just wanted to let you know that's you're definitely not the only one. So many people go through this same excact thing..but we all get through it somehow..Somehow.
--Viola