Just when you feel like you have had it to the point of insanity, out of the clear blue sky comes a wonderful surprise. being alone for so long, then finally letting someone in only to be completely disappointed and sickened by my own decisions and actions has made a miserable week for me. when others feel that you have let them down, thats one thing. but when you let yourself down, it's a horrible mind trip. sitting around for days just pondering over my own stupidity was beginning to take it's toll. didn't wanna shower, smoked liked a chimney, drank enough Star bucks that i should look into stock options. so i load up my crew of dogs....Medusa Anubis & Pharaoh Osiris and put my dirty pathetic ass in the car and venture out for more Newport's. maybe the cosmos decided that i suffered enough. so i just happen into another who seems to be going through their own mind trip. instantly we click! instead of just hitting on me, they want to get to know me, and have a chat and a drink. i am in awe. for right now, i am smiling. maybe not later, but now. what the day may bring is out of my hands. it's just nice to feel that pressure on my mind and chest is gone. nice to breathe
