In life, the things we think we want are not all that they seem when you get them. as bright as the sun may be, screaming down on me with all the light. it's still dark in me. the burning smell is overwhelming. i made the decision to go to the darkness. on the outside i smile, laugh. just a giddy Lil bit. denial only brings him to my dreams. standing in front of my home, i watched the snakes crawl about. in and out of every Lil crevice. just watching me. the one who passed spoke to me of things to come, what should have been. as beautiful as he ever was, the snakes still surrounded us. i wanted to reach out and touch his face. but the dark one only lets me get so close, just enough to hear the passed one's words. i am different, and always have been. will not conform to the ways of this world. i walk alone mostly. never expect sympathy and love from me. i could care less. never try to fill me with false hope. i am so familiar with being let down
