How

There has been many ways,
ways i have been able to tell you;
tell you everything.
this is just too much.
too hard to tell.

i have been through so much,
too much you don't know.
what you don't know won't hurt,
if you knew, it would hurt you.

so, how do i win?
let it all out and feel better, yet ashamed;
or sacrifice on your behalf?

until the day comes,
i will be forever thinking how,
how can i tell you?