Thoughts

The feelings of this connection
Millions of thoughts
Which ones do I mention?

The thoughts of the events that took place
The thoughts of the way you entered my space

All types of emotions run through my head
I can't remember everything that was said

The emotions of him taking my breath away
The emotions of not knowing if he is here to stay

Am I getting my hopes to high?
Just to find out I will have to say good bye

Or perhaps this is just a lost fantasy
Bigger then my minds entire capacity

Will this turn out the way I intended
Or will the results be broken and bended

You say to me all I have to do is TRUST
But that's a place in my life that contains so much rust

Is my heart beyond repair?
Or will I be able to open it and share?

Only time will be able to tell
A fable I can only hope will turn out well

What is he doing to my mind?
I'm lost in my feelings he makes so easy to find

You say sometimes you don't think I'm real
But when I think about you that's how I feel

Can this man that's so amazing
Can this man that leaves me gazing

Can this man that's so true
Be the one the one I'm talking too?

Can he see the real me
Or the person I portray to be

If you can't and that's the case
I wonder what the future will face

What if I'm not who he thought I was
He turns me away no explanation just cuz

What if it's just too much for him?
Our journey is starting to grow so dim

Am I trippin' or is it too late
My mind plays games it must not be fate

Is this normal to have so many questions?
Is this normal to have such little intensions?

I don't know what I'm going to have to do
I could ignore the negative thoughts I'm going through

But how do I know I'm not walking into pain
I will have to take a chance and stand in the rain

I have to follow the feelings of my heart
And pray to God it doesn't tear me apart.

All these thoughts can seem so bad
But there are good ones that I have also had

Like the way his soft hands caress my back
A sensational feeling he never makes me lack

The sound of his voice the way he speaks
Leaves me satisfied for days upon weeks

A sensual touch upon my curves
Tingles not only mine but all his nerves

A favor I am sure to return
The physical touch he has longed to yearn

After all he treats me like a princess
Like royalty, like his very own misses

So I start at the tip of his ear
A circular motion my breathing he can hear

I slowly move to his neck
Kissing one side then the other gaining all his respect

I stop for a minute to gaze in his eyes
Getting assurance he has no lies

I slide my hands down his side
Removing any worries he tried to hide

He looks up at me and closes his eyes
Ready to receive whatever his surprise

I embrace myself for what's in store
"Don't stop" he wants more and more

With scratches on his back
And sweat on his sheets
I lay my head upon his chest
Close my eyes and find Peace.