My heart is pulling me in two different directions, unable to make a decision. Unknowingly, my very own heart is wearing me out. I am exhausted. There are just too many tricks, too many mind games. I wish it could just decide what it wants, who it wants. I am beginning to give up on my very own heart, the one that I will always have. It is sad though, that one must give up on their heart at such a young age. A heart should bring a person love, not heartache and sorrow. My very own heart only brings me insecurities, fears and sadness. I do not know which way to turn, and I never will know the way until my heart makes a decision. I am so confused and tired, slowly giving up. I do not want to move forward, I want to give up. I wish my heart would stop this everlasting game, which is slowly killing me with every beat it takes. I am only a young girl, with dreams and desires, but my heart is holding me back from success and happiness. All my heart has given me is failure and sadness. I wish it would give up on me since I have already given up on it. Maybe without feelings, I could be happier. I wish I had no heart, yet this would be impossible. Without a heart it is impossible for one to live, but living with a heart that cannot make a decision, is more painful than death itself could ever be. With each beat my heart takes, it pumps weakness through my veins, and the strength which I once had is slowly fading away. Everything is beginning to fade away, nothing is clear, and I am lost. I am fading away. My soul is fading away. My life is fading away. And slowly, my heart is fading away too. All the things my heart could have felt and known, are washed away. They have vanished and disappeared, all because my heart could not make up its mind. It was only an impossible decision.
