Make me suffer

Why do I hurt so much
Why do I ache inside
The anger is getting too much
Now I've lost all my pride

Maybe I have lost my way
Rejection is all I know
Maybe it's all my fault
For being so damn shallow

I never knew what real love was
And I never felt real pain
I was selfish, cruel and evil
I've got no-one else to blame

Sharpen all the knives up
Get the candles burning
Punish me for my sins
Now the tables are turning

Bruise me just a little more
Let me take the pain
Stab me with your harsh words
Make me suffer in vain

Mangle up my worthless head
Beat me till I'm blue
Injure me like I deserve
Damage my self-esteem too

I am just not worthy
Now I see my lies
I deserve unhappiness
The tears fall from my eyes

Discipline my wicked heart
Teach me right from wrong
Take me to a better place
Help to make me strong

No-one knows how much I hurt
No-one knows just how I feel
No-one else can take my grief
Can someone help me heal

I'm suffering now so let me bleed
It's over yet I try to carry on
I'm nothing now, I am dead
And I don't even know where I belong