So this is my goodbye
I cannot take no more
Nothing seems to help me
And life is one long chore
I leave behind my family
I leave behind my friend
I leave behind the misery
That I've suffered up till the end
The men I've known are liars
The women aren't much better
And now I'll never trust a soul
So I must leave this letter
I sit and cry and mope about
I cannot lift my head
I cannot raise a smile today
I can't get out of bed
Another man has hurt me
Another friend has lied
No-one ever seems able to be
Happy being by my side
I know that I am weak
I know I am a coward
But I have lived like this for years
I can't take one more hour
I wish that friends were true
I wish that men wouldn't lie
I wish that everyone I meet
Would stop making me cry
I've tried to get back out there
I've tried to live alone
But I don't want to spend the rest
Of my life on my own
One day I'll lose my parents
One day my boys will leave
I lie awake and worry about
The future and I grieve
I cannot get their breakfast
I can't dress them for school
I cannot be the mum I want
It makes me feel a fool
I know the boys can see it
I know it makes them sad
I know that I am losing them
And that makes me feel bad
All I've ever wanted was
A perfect family home
But my illness left me desperate
Confused and so alone
No-one can ever understand
And I don't get it myself
All I know is that I've lost
My sanity and my health
I know I'll never be happy
I'm bringing everyone down
And so the babies will be better off
If mummy was no longer around
I truly do believe that
They deserve so much more
I'm sorry that I've hurt them
And I'm sorry they'll be sore
I hope they can be happy
Without a mum who's sad
I hope that they get everything
I hope they don't feel bad
I hope they'll always love me
Twas never meant to be this way
But I've fallen too low this time
And there's nothing more I can say
Except that I am sorry
And I only want the best
I love you all for being there
But now it's time to rest
