So Many

They never see the real me,

They only see who they want me to be,

I'm trapped inside this perfect box,

but someone has the key to my locks,

It's been so long since I have truly smiled,

I have been crying for such a while,

no one seems to look inside,

and see the world that im leaving behind,

so many things are running through my mind,

so many things I cannot find,

so many lies that I have been told,

so many reasons I have to be so cold,

I promise my self to never get to close,

I'm closing and locking all my doors,

putting my walls back up,

rebuilding my barriers,

and this is the last time,

next time won't be so lucky.