I used to be so happy.
smiling everyday.
I used to be so cheerful.
holding your hand, as we laughed and played.
but now my heart is broken.
because your just not the same.
go ahead and blame it all on me
for that I am who you always blame.
he took my pride.
stompt on it like it was nothing.
did it to my heart as well,
i'm a nervous; emotional reck.
does he even care.
i really don't think he does.
never thought he did.
never seemed to care about me.
everything had to revolve around him.
and oh how that just made my fists curl
brought tears to my eyes.
somehow i managed to make everyone believe
that i was the happiest thing in the world.
not knowing that deep down inside, i'm hurt;lonley and confused.
not knowing that every night I cry.
i cry my silent cries.
i cry myself to sleep
every night
the blood in my veins run cold.
i wish he would understand
but he won't.
he will not return my phone calls.
i don't get it, i'm so confused
because without him i'm a mess.
i wish he would just love me for me.
and everything didn't make us stress.
whatever this is we'll make it through
i look at him and smile.
he is my world
and i'm his girl.
i don't want that to change.
though sometimes i doubt him.
sometimes i doubt us
but i know without him i couldn't
contain
so i continue doing anything in world
for him
ignoring everything else.
