Adrenaline

The violence
the rage
my bones; they ache
my body; it tires
adrenaline rush
adrenaline rush
wonders of suicide
is it painful?
the adrenaline it must cause
enough to do the deed itself
wonders of homicide
is it calming?
the adrenaline it must cause
enough to kill my demons
it's your fault; your fault!
YOU DID THIS TO ME
my head; it spins
my heart; it bleeds
shh...do you hear that?
the beautiful screams
my own asylum; my own prison
crimson stained hands
porcelain flushed face
my smile; it fades
my eyes; they pulse
hatred grows
something will happen
will I snap?
time will heal
time can't heal
time won't heal
the pressure is building
can you hear it
grind; grind
they crack, they break
I'm breaking
no sleep
can't sleep
but eyes are closed
mind is gone
(in)sane maybe?
do you fear for your life
I fear for mine
GOD THE ANGER
MAKE IT GO AWAY
sharpened blades
taste the blood
why why why?
innocent; I'm innocent
it's all a show
my mask is strong
make me forget
stitches stitches
rusty needles
bloody threads
no guilt; no guilt
REPEAT; REPEAT
did it again
promises shattered
lies lies lies
deceived
abused
used
no more tears
no more pain
pretty little blade
pretty little neck
a beautiful line of red
cocaine cocaine
taste the line
taste the addiction
the life; it leaves
homicide is calming
my wrists; they twist
calling; calling
spin; spin
I take a turn
drip in a vile
my poison
my lips are dry
cough; cough
I take a sip
suicide isn't painful