Intoxicated lust

If only you knew how much
This is tearing me up inside
You would completely understand
Why I would have rather lied.
I didn't want things to change
I wanted them to stay the same.
But everything is different
Because of your sense of shame.
My understanding of your desires
Does not register with you.
You think that changing our friendship
Is the right thing to do.
But by changing it, I'm reminded
Of the dirty deed that was done.
I'm not looking to get with you now.
I'm just wanting to have fun.
I'm not looking for a relationship,
Just someone to chill with that I like and trust.
Just one night on the weekends,
To fall into intoxicated lust.
But that, I guess, is too much for you.
You think it'll lead to something more.
If so, I'll try not to show it;
My feelings, I'll ignore.
You promised that things wouldn't be different.
You said it' be alright.
Apparently you made that promise without thinking;
Without a bit of incite
Of the type of person that I am;
How I just can't walk away.
I'd be kidding myself
If I said I was okay.
Jealousy is the result
Of intoxicated lust.
A consequence was a connection between us;
An inevitable must.
So think about this,
And what you've already said
Before you put your plan to action.
Think about what could lie ahead.

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[i feel like i need to add something else to the end... to wrap it up... but i can't figure it out. any suggestions?]