The past running through my head,
Childhood is supposed to be what you remember the most. I can not remember mine, something happened that apparently my mind does not want to remember.
A tragic incident that I remember but not remember who, when, where, or why, I moved away and became something I never was, or thought I was never going to be.
My mind may have forgotten what had happened when I was younger, but most important I have forgotten who I was. Is that even possible? I use to be outgoing, smart, an angel, and most importantly happy.
When I moved I lost who I was, I lost my happiness, and I lost who I used to be. Now all I want is to get me , the me everyone knew and loved back. I have become nothing, with each passing day I am losing grip.
Losing grip on life, how am I supposed to survive if I can not even get passed High School?
I am falling on my hands and knees and everyone is leaving me behind.
I am to lost in my own mind to be saved, I need help, but to afraid to get any.
Fearing of what they might say.
Is there a way out?
I am screaming, take my heart out, and bury it deep. Leave me on the ground to die, for I do not deserve to live, to grow, or to fly. Give me a reason to live, give me a reason not to die.
God are you there? What is my reason for being here? Angels, take me off this forsaken earth and let me roam in the nothingness inside of me.
You did not ruin my life, I have ruined my own life.
Please, please, take me away, let me have no feelings, let me have no pain, let me have the me I once was. I used to be alive but now I just survive, with no reason to live nor a reason to die.
