My Suicide Note To Him

I warned you this would happen
As I cried to you on the phone
But you didn't believe me
And you didn't realize I was really alone

You told me to just wait and see
And that what I said was just a scandal
But when nothing improved
It became more than I could handle

I told you what I was planning
And when I was going to do it
But you just sat and watched me
And didn't help me through it

Now don't go on crying to your friends
About how this was your fault
Because no one wants to hear it
At any point you could've stopped

You could've stopped pretending
And stopped telling me how it was
Every single thing I did wrong
Each and everything because

I hated you at first
But soon enough I loved you
Obviously you didn't return it
Reading this? yes my life is through

But every living second
I only cried for you
No longer can I put up with this
Now I'm dwelling in hell too

I don't care what you think
Or how your sad, or not
What you should care about is that I'm gone
Dead in just one shot

And you knew I cut
So very deep
Over and over again
My blood would seep

But hearing you laugh
Through my tears
Was way too much
And wasn't worth another year

Just know how much I loved you
I swear I really did
But now I'm not here because of you
Please take care of the kids

~~ you know who you are