3 years

As I look out my window
As I walk down the street
I keep inside me something that runs so deep

I don't keep things in, that's just not me
But this thing inside me just can't be seen

They don't understand
Because it is my old man

They don't know my past
And they can't see my future

That little girl that cried in the dark
Just had to be told things will be alright

I can't help but wonder
What my life would be like
If i had a different man there ready to fight

fight for the daughter that was his
Keep her safe like most dads did

I can't run from my life
I can't be like him, that's something he did

An alcoholic thats what he was
There was no changing him
NOT EVEN ME

I was always there for him
Like he wasn't for me

I tried being the older one
But thats something I can't be

I am the daughter not the mom
He wanted me to take over
to save him from harm

He wasn't the dad I used to have
His voice was no longer calm
His touch no longer genital

I miss him so much right now
More then ever before

Only 3 years
And i can give him another try
See if he's still the man who onced lied

A little girls tears
That will never dry up

Tears on her pillow
Shadows fallow behind

She said something she didn't mean
She opened her mouth and out came a scream

She almost took the life of the man who gave her one
She wishes she could be like his only son

He had the gun to his head
Shouting the words she once said
Ready to shoot because he's rather be dead

He lost his daughter
His entire life
Maybe next time he can think twice

I hope your doing alright
And know that things will be okay

I will forever be your angle
And forever guide your way

And right now that's all I have to say......Until 3 years to this day

By tiffany Roxanne

this poem is to my dad...I miss you..and I am sorry