Remembering December

Lying in the September sun,
I watch, over me, the black birds fly,
Thoughts of you run through my mind,
And as I do I know I cry.

Sunsets now fill my heart with loneliness,
That's all that's left within me,
My child-like mind misses everything,
And I can never again be free.

I lay on the tomb, not belonging to anyone,
Gone are the days where October fills my soul,
With joy, and gold, and a new light,
Replaced with shadows, darkness, of not feeling whole.

I find myself sleeping in numbing pain,
Apathy is growing as great as an ocean,
And I look in to mist, searching for your face,
I'm drifting a long way without much motion.

I'm alone in the world, all alone,
Being beat down for my single cause,
I'm a dog walking November streets,
But every perfection must have their flaws.

Breathing in, breathing out,
Running down life's road alone,
I swear I'm not going anywhere,
There's no one left in this dead zone.

And I lay back to watch the sunrise,
My heart rolling back what I remember,
Days of what we used to be,
The nights of my sweet December.