Hate waking up in the morning...feeling like i have nothing, i go to school...sit in the same place everyday, its like my home, I'm there the most, with more feelings than ever. I sit there staring at the class, people talking In there little groups. You don't have to act like you like me! i know what your saying! and i don't really care, so i turn around and start to draw broken hearts on my notebook,All I can remember thinking throughout the day is when will peace be here. I get to basketball practice, where i can run, and have all my focus on the ball and my running destination. I don't have to worry about anything! its the best feeling in the world. But as soon as I'm in that locker room, with my shoes i just put on, bag on my shoulder, getting ready to get home, i realize this is my life, i wish i knew how to change it, i need help, i just want to get away! people wonder why i did drugs,drank so much when i could, and got hung up on all the wrong people who in the end would end up screwing me over more than i realized at the time! I'm sorry I need to grow up, I'm sorry i don't think about anybody but myself. But hey a day in my shoes and you would see why its hard for me to talk to people about my feelings, why its hard to care about somebody more than myself. b.c when i lost almost everyone, I'm scared, and my guard comes up and wont let down not even a bit!
