I want you to know excatly how I feel,
but everytime I try to explain my feelings,
I feel as if what I said wasn't good enough,
because it's so hard to explain how I feel.
You have changed me in way unimangiable,
you have made me believe in myself and others,
you give me the courage to get through the hardest days,
and you give me the strength to let go of my past.
You have brought so much happiness to my life,
you've sat by my side when I was being immature,
you've told me you loved me when I messed up,
and you've always been there when I cried.
I wish I could explain what you have done for me,
you gave me the strength to get out of an unhleathy relationship,
though we had never even met at that time,
you're advice and help got me through everything.
Even before we had met face to face I liked you,
you were just so easy and fun to talk to,
and you could always make me smile and laugh,
you were my best friend and you still are.
So we've had a few fights and said mean things,
but we've gotten through them together,
and I know we're going to fight some more,
but I also know we can get through it.
This is the first time in my life I've been so sure of a relationship,
this is the first time I've been able to be myself,
you have gained my respect and my trust,
and I honestly don't think you'll ever lose it.
A year ago I remember telling myself I'd never love again,
I remeber how I used to never want to wake up,
but I knew that I'd find someone some dayy,
and then I foundd youu .
I don't know what I'd have done if I hadn't met you,
if I hadn't accepted your friend request on MSN,
imange what would've happened had I never met you,
I have no idea where I would be today at this moment.
You have been amazingg through all the tough times I've had,
you've sat beside me when I needed a shoulder to cry on,
you were with me at Megan's funeral,
and you helped me through family fights.
Erik you've been such an amazing help through everything,
and even writting this brings tears to my eyes,
because when I think back to the first time we talked on MSN,
I remember the girl who was afraid that she'd found love.
That girl who you talked to that night is still part of me today,
but I've changed and learned to smile more,
you've brought out all the good things in me and now I focus more on them,
eventhough I know I still have some flaws I know everyone does.
I wish I could explain everything I want to too you,
I wish I could just find a single word to discribe this feeling,
but even the word love isn't strong enough for love is too far overused,
and everyone throws it around like its nothing.
I just wish that you could look through my eyes and see what I see,
I wish you could feel what I feel and everything,
because then it would be so much more easy to explain,
you'd already know what I was trying to say.
We've shared so many smiles and laughs and inside jokes,
we've come up with mean nicknames for people,
and we've laughed at some pretty stupid things,
but the funnest part is that we did it toegther .
We've acted like little kids together and played with kiddie toys,
we've laughed at stupid warning signs,
like 'brain freeze may occur',
and we've sung outloud together to different songs.
We've drawn mean pictures of people and named them,
we've kissed in the pouring rain,
we've ran to my house at midnight thinking a torondo was coming,
we've just acted like complete idiots and didn't care what anyone thought.
We've laughed untill our stomachs hurt,
and we've tickled eachother till it hurt to move,
but the best part was the fact that after all it we're still in love,
and we're only growing stronger.
Two months have passed us by so quickly and so much has happened,
you've helped me deal with the death of my best friend,
you've gotten me out of bed on days I've just wanted to lay down and die,
you have no idea what you have done for me.
Erik I love you so much wayy more then you could ever know,
and I know that I dont show it all the time and Im sorry I dont,
Im just not used to all these feelings of the safeness and secureness,
I'm not used to actully being in love.
So tonight when I go to bedd and eventully fall asleep,
I know that my dreams will be of youu and me and I'll have nothing to fear,
we've gotten through everything we have in the past two months,
and I know we can face whatever this month brings -- together .
