Erik ,

How can I explain how you make me feel,
I've tried to so many times in so many ways,
but I cant describe this feeling no matter what,
because it's just something I feel inside of me.
It's the way your voice can make me smile,
and your smile makes me want to never let go,
and how everytime my eyes change colour,
yours are always the excate same colour.
It's when your laying beside me in my bed,
and brushing the hair out of my face and eyes,
and kissing me good night when you're here,
its all these times that keep me wanting more.
It's the way our hands fit so perfectly together,
and how when your around me I dont need a mirror,
it's the way you can make me smile when I cant,
and the way you try to make me mad just to hear my baby voice.
It's all the simple things you do every single day,
that prove to me that you love me more eachday,
the way you always tell me how much I mean to you,
and always remind me about how much you love me.
From the day I first met you till where we are,
so much has happened and so much has changed,
and never once has any of this been a mistake or regeret,
because each and everyday I find myself more in love with you.
We've shared so many laughs and inside jokes,
and you've sat by myside when I was crying,
you got me up each morning when I felt like dying,
and got me through fights with my friends and family.
Five months ago when I first met you face to face,
I remember seeing you walking towards us in the mall,
and I remember my whole body tensing up and I became shy,
but after we talked for awhile I realised that I didnt have to be shy.
Five months ago I didn't think we'd end up to where we are today,
but now when I look at pictures of us I see something I havent seen before,
I see myself smiling a real smile and I haven't smiled like that in so long,
and it's all because you walked into my life and made me happy.
I remember everything from our first day together till tonight,
I remember our first kiss was the second time you asked me out,
our first sleepover was the night after our first kiss,
our first pictures we took was the first time I met you.
I dont think that theres anymore possible ways for you to prove that you love me,
theres nothing else you can do that you havent already done,
you've sat by my side when I was crying and in pain,
you've surprised me when I least expected it and needed it.
Erik ; you've done so much for me and I owe you the world,
you have no idea about just how much you've done for me,
or how many smiles you've brought to my face,
or how many times you've told me you loved at just the right time.
I wish I could explain excatly how you make me feel,
it's the way your hugs make me never want to let go,
and how your kisses always manage to make me feel better,
it's just everything you do that makes me fall more in love with you.
From all the walks we've took on the boardwalk just so we could talk,
and all the movies we've sat through just laughing and holding hands,
all the love songs we've listened to that somehow remind us of us,
and all the pain you've made completly disappear.
You always remind me that I am beautiful and smart,
you tell me about how I dont need makeup to be pretty,
and how I dont have to be good at everything to be smart,
you make me realise everyday that I'm fine just the way I am.
I remember as a little girl I planed my perfect wedding,
I wanted the Cinderella fairytale wedding filled with exstravigent things,
I wanted to be the prettiest bride I could ever possibly be,
and have everything excatly the way I wanted it to be.
But now I dont care about how pretty I'll look as a bride,
and I dont care if I get the Cinderella fairytale weddding,
and if it all doesn't go my way Im not going to get mad,
my wedding can be anything as long as it's you im marrying .
I know that we're still younge and things can change,
but I also know that this feeling inside my stomach is love,
everything I feel about you is going to change but it will only grow stronger,
and I promised you that my feelings would never change and I know they wont.
All I want to do is to see a smile on your face and sparkle in your eyes,
and wether or not it's with me or someone else I just want you to be happy,
I know that people grow and that sometimes promises get broken,
but it's always only for the best but the future doesnt matter its here and now that counts.
I know my past is full of pain and regerets and theres a lot I wish I could change,
theres so many things that still linger in my mind and they tear me apart,
but when your around me everything is always just so happy,
and I can forget about my past because my present is all that matters.
You are so much more then just my boyfriend ; you're my best friend too,
I talked to you about everything since the day I met you on MSN,
you've ever turned your back on me and you always listened to what I had to say,
and you somehow always managed to put a smile onto my face.
I wish I could explain to you everything that I feel and everything you do for me,
you make me smile and laugh in this special kind of way,
and for once in my life I'm believing everything a guy says to me ; because its you,
and you are so different from everyone else I've ever met.
I am the luckiest girl alive just to know you and to be your friend,
but I am by far the most luckiest girl to ever walk this planet to have you as my boyfriend,
my feelings for you are never going to fade away they will only grow stronger,
and all my smiles and laughs will grow to be more often just as we will grow together .
Erik Riauka ; I have no idea where my life would be without you or what I'd do without you,
all I know is that I wouldn't have grown to be the person I am today,
I wish that I could fast forward through time just to make sure I married the right guy & thats you,
I love you with all my heart and soul and I never ever wana lose you.