A year ago I thought I knew excatly who I was,
I thought I knew everything i could ever know,
and then it all changed,
and you came into my life.
You became my best friend,
and we'd sit and talk for hours,
we'd tell eachother every deatil of our lives,
and laugh and cry together.
But with all the good comes bad,
all our fights made up for the good times,
and we seemed to ahve more tears then smiles,
and I tricked myself into thinking it was worth the while.
But now as I sit here and think back upon this year,
I realise this wasn't worth the waste of my tears,
everything happens for a reason and thats true,
and the reason for this was to find the real you.
You could always make me smile,
even though I'd wana cry,
and you could seem to make laugh,
when I just wanted to be alone.
But along with the smiles and laughs you brought,
you brought me pain&tears,
and deep inside my heart and soul,
I knew that this wasnt right.
But i could never think of hurting you,
the ways you've hurt me so many times,
so I took all the hurt and pain,
untill you ended it last night.
I dont understand what happened,
and maybe i never will,
you tell me that you're feelings changed,
but how could they if you loved me?
I dont know if you ever loved me,
I dont know if you ever really cared,
everything changed for the worse,
and now I feel the rain.
I wont get over you today,
and I wont be over you tomorrow,
but time heals everything,
atleast thats what they say.
Maybe in a year from now,
I'll see you walking down the street,
and we'll walk by eachother,
without even a glance.
Sometimes I wonder what went wrong,
what happened to all our love,
what happened to the tickle fights,
and all the poke wars we had.
All our good times,
were replaced with bad,
and all the happy smiles,
just ended up as sad tears.
but I promise I wont cry,
and I promise I wont die,
for I have far more to live for,
then just a silly boy.
My friends and family tell me that you'll live with the regret,
and I know that you will,
for I have nothing to regret,
I gave this relationship my very best.
But a relationship does not exist without the proper care,
or without the proper love taht each person should share,
a relationship is nothing without the effort,
and I guess you just couldnt put in the effort anymore.
But I can walk out of this relationship with my head high,
for I have learned about love and about myself,
I learned that I'm stronger then I think,
and love can cure all hurt.
So as I write this poem for you,
all the memouries flood back,
and as i think back to each of them,
I see what I never wanted to see before.
I see that lies that broke my heart,
and the girls that stole my place,
but I also see the guys I've met,
taht havent had a second chance.
I'm walking out of this relationship,
knowing that I'll be okay,
I'm walking out of your life,
without a second goodbye.
Please understand that this is hard for me,
and this isnt how I wanted it to be,
but how can I love something that I know isnt coming back,
something that really wasnt there.
Now I can be whoever I want,
I can smile&laugh feeling no regret,
I'm not ready to let go just yet,
but I'm not holding on when this love isnt strong.
So goodbye my old dear friend,
and goodbye my ex boyfriend,
goodbye to all the lies,
and all our words that are left unsaid.
Goodbye to all the memouries,
both the good and the bad,
and goodbye my dear Merle,
for this is where it ends.
You can go and hurt someone else now,
and make another girl believe shes your world,
then crush her spirts and rip her dreams,
untill shes in a world of hurt and pain.
I'm not welcoming you back with open arms,
and I'm not going to say Im sorry,
I'm just going to walk away from this love untrue,
and into the real world.
