Struggling

I'm barely able, I can't breathe
Can't you see the pain you brought to me?
You tell me what I want to here & then you make me fall.
I don't even know myself anymore, how could you make me doubt myself?
Such pain I have clouds my vision now, I can't even keep my feelings under control

I'm clinging to your every word, my heart on my sleeve. Waiting by the phone for your call. So desperate of me. I can't focus on my work, my grades are slipping, my parents flipping cuz my phone bill's too high. I only continue because of the feelings inside. When we talk, I can't help but to smile. But there are times when you make me feel so low....No more pain, no more confusion. I'm so tired of this, so tired of you.

Why should I be the only 1 suffering?
Struggling to find myself?
All you do is mess with my mind, play with my emotions.
Is this all a game to you?
I won't let you, I can't continue to let you do this to me, to hurt me in the worse possible way. I thought you'd be the one to save me! I should have known better than trust someone like you.