Reflection Of Imperfection (Eating Disorder club collab)

Repulsion feeds my own compulsion,
and this cycle of hatred carries on,
resigned my life over in a moment,
and now i am too far gone

My simple goal is to be thin
In the end I want to win
It has become a quest
And I can not rest

I am simply searching for perfection;
Swimming through the deepest seas
But now I am stuck. Forever with this affliction;
And the battle throws me to my knees.

I need someone to tell me,
That I am beautiful though I am not,
I need someone to say I'm perfect,
To make me believe I'm good enough.

And as I try to move along,
Not eating as much as I can stand,
striving to be thinner,
To have the smallest waist-band,

They don't see how far I've gone,
And how close to the end I've gotten,
To them everything is alright,
And I sit alone and forgotten.

A simple mask
I hide my hunger
for to be thin
I cannot eat

Until I reach my painful goal
I will be left pretending I'm whole
everyday
putting on a show

Because I am stuck in the cycle of this half-life,
i long to be flawless, pristine, and pure,
a part of me wants to back away now,
but my heart, my soul, needs more.

For I am a reflection of imperfection
I hate myself too much to
Give myself some affection
I give myself negative attention

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Collab By My Lovely, Pure Imperfection, Simple Sensation, Geekable, Never Found, Chemically Corrupted and sorry can't be enough for you