Here I am

Here i am....
I cant say a word
I look around i cant see
I dont have feelings like i once did
My days r limited in this world
I am hurt so much
These memoriez of my life r killing me
Im having a really bad day and no one wants me
I wish i could say how i feel
I want to talk and make it go away
But I cant
I look around
I know things always comes to an end
I dont want to loose any more
I woked up this morning
All i could here was yelling
I put a pillow over my head and said please go away
Then i yelled mommy i hate him
Now hes gone and im tryin to sleep
These memoriez r to bad
Mom told me to get over it
If it happined to her she would be the same way if not worse
Im really trying to get better but i cant
I am to scared
I just want something i cant have....