How i really truly feel and none will ever know cause no one knows me
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-my sight fades out
this is not me,
i live in a world of doubt
i wear a mask can't you see,
-why can't they tell
No one's here,
I know I'm living in hell
all i feel is fear,
- I write about how i feel
though none will ever realize,
i will never be able to heal
none know, must have a great disguise,
-My life is falling apart
I'm crying on the inside,
I need a new start
i think want to die,
-I don't show anything on the out
I feel no emotion,
all I really want to do is shout
i need a new direction,
-When i say how i feel
my friends, they say freak,
they ask what is the deal
it makes me afraid to speak,
-They don't even really care
no one here's my sorrowed cries,
i need someone who will always be there
they don't even here my plea's
-I don't want someone to care
but if I'm all alone, i will cry,
i know they wont all always be there
and if they leave i will surely die,
-I'm loosing it, my balance is slipping
I'm no longer on solid ground,
in two my heart is ripping
I think I just might drowned,
-No one knows the truth
they don't realize i write about me,
i thought it was ok, my heart was bullet proof
but it's not, and now I'm alone in misery,
-I make it through each day
my hope is slowly fading,
the pain slowly numbing away
i know i will forever be hurting,
-I know i will forever and all ways be hurting
I'll try to glue my heart together, piece by piece,
i will make it and i will wake up every morning
and somehow in my life i will find loving peace,
-My life is no where near perfect
but it's mine and thats ok, or it was ok,
i will change it and will no longer be wreaked
i will be a surviver, I will be some day,
-I have learned to hide everything so well
i felt like i have always been betrayed, but now,
I realize I have to save myself from this hell
I know I will make it someday, somehow,
-but I still wish me life was over
no one cares if I'm not there,
life is in the eye of the beholder
well thats not me so i don't care,
so i will say my finale goodbye
and hope I will finally die.
