You were everything to me,
You still are.
I want you to know,
You haunt my every dream.
You see I never wanted
You to see the tears behind my eyes,
Or the pain behind the smile.
And I wonder if its smart to even let you read this,
But I can't hold it in any longer,
You need to know I still love you so,
Even though I'm pretty sure you don't feel the same.
And the blame lands only upon my shoulders.
I'm the one who is holding on to a dream
That will never come true, to a wish that
Was never meant for me.
I've never known what it was like to feel
Something so wonderful, something so real,
Until the day you entered my life.
I was, torn, beaten, my heart a shattered mess.
I never new what it was like to feel anything but pain,
Never trusting even those closest to me,
Never knowing why the human race had to be so cruel.
I build a wall so strong and high,
So no one could break through.
You must have been some superman,
Because you tore that wall to shreds,
until only ashes remained at our feet.
You held me close and kissed my lips,
Soon fear turned into longing,
I never wanted to let go,
but fate had other plans, it always does.
Time passed and it wasn't long before
We agreed to keep it as best friends.
Days turned into weeks with little to no contact.
Each of us slowly growing farther apart.
Now I wonder if you even care...
Where is it that you went into hiding?
I know I sound like a whiny little child
whose just lost her teddy, but thats what it feels like
You have to understand that you mean the world to me,
I still care about you, even if you've forgotten about me.
Seeing you today,
I couldn't read your eyes,
although apart of me wondered,
If you even missed me.
Your smile still melts my heart,
just as before, I know I sound pathetic,
But I wanted you to know.
