Dont wake

Rip me up and throw me out I am nothing more then a memory
You see that pile of ashes that used to be all of you and me
I would tare you all out of the very deeps of my soul
For one single thought and not losing all control
There is an evil within the deeps of my heart
I can only hope it will not tare me apart
I hope you are happy now cause I assure you I am not
Please do not miss your aiming at me and only have one shot
Go ahead and pull the trigger its ok
I wanted to die anyway
There really is no point in going on to tomorrow
It is only more depression and sorrow
Maybe if I am lucky I will not even wake
Everyone knows my life was just a mistake