Letter to Daddy

The pen is nervous as it shakes in my hand,
waiting for this mental block to expand.
A letter to you, my only fear,
A letter that may bring a smile or a tear.

A letter about the years you've missed,
There's been so many, I have formed a long list.
Tell you about my life and my new dad,
Secretly wishing you'll care and be sad,
Be sad you were never a part of my life,
Too bad had to leave us and get a new wife.

Without you, I'm half empty, half full,
To lose the feeling I'll need an extra pull.
Will you help me or do you not care?
Will you just watch as I squirm and stare?

My new father is better, no doubt.
He took the time to learn what I'm about.
Unlike you, he loves me so.
Unlike you, he lets me know.

There is a crash as my pen hits the floor,
That's it, I can't write anymore.
So here is the letter I'll never send.
So here is the heart you'll never mend.