Daddy

I dont want to hear my mom crying in the shower
I dont want to hear the phone ringing every hour
Im tired of people giving me hugs, cus that just makes me cry
I hate telling people Im ok, when thats a lie

I feel like falling apart
Theres a big empty space in my heart
Still havent accepted he isnt coming home
But when I wake up, Im all alone

My mother needs me now
I refer back to that day, and the silence is so loud
My father went brain dead and coudnt hear a word
Living without him is what I have to learn

Seeing his body slump on the hospital bed
Holding his hand and talking to him when I knew he was dead
Why did it happen so fast, I couldnt say goodbye
At 49, my father suddenly died

Nobody has a clue how hard living is for me
I wish the pain would subside and flee
I dont think I said this enough, but I love you
Bless mommy and me and this pain we'll try to get through