I never wanted to find love
felt like that came later in life
all my thoughts were on education
make something out of my life
but one night you came into my life
never will forget that night
I felt love
as if lightening had struck me from above
time and time has passed
and over and over again
you have walked out of my life
and again I let you come back
but this time when you left
I never saw you after that
you never showed back up
and suddenly I was heartbroken w/o your love
for so long I fought that love thing
the way you fall so deep
the way girls would cry
and never get sleep
I said to myself
that will never be me
and now it has happened to me
but you'll never see break down
I always hid my feelings from you
just felt that getting to comfortable
was a trap
and I wasn't the type that let someone take control
I've always taught myself to be independent
but somehow I let down
all that I built up
soon it was just me and you
soon you had all control
and my independence went to shame
just like our arguments I took the blame
my heart began to open up
no matter how far I pushed from your love
this isn't me
its like I'm a victim
you came and got all you wanted
and left when it was good for you
and inconvenient for me
but even though I'm heartbroken over you
you'll never see me break down
no tears publicly will fall to the ground
sometime will pass
my broken heart symptoms will heal
as I lay in bed
as I get my thoughts back to being real
I gave all my heart to you
let down my guard
and this is how you repay me
leave me empty
thoughts and feelings gone to shame
control lost in love
love being false
and in the end I'm left lost
but I promise....you'll never see me cry
or breakdown
this is the reason why
so many women
refuse relationships
because of men captivating and breaking them
its back to waking up early
getting dressed
no breakfast, no time for that
time for work
and at the end of the day
its back to the fireplace
and looking out the window
and wondering why men do
the things they do...
