Well I surely understand it. It might not be a perfectly flowing poem..but it doesn't have to be. It has all the emotion in it. And after all loosing a love is a confusing situation...and if that is expressed in the poem..then the poem is doing a good job of expressing the emotions the poet felt at the time (which is "what you did).
I like this, as painful as it is, I like it. I'm sure people can relate.

You don't have your faith in your own hands
But you do have your choices and actions"

^That is so very true. It's how life works. We don't get to choose what happends but we do get to choose how we react to it. Great work! =] keep it up.
--Viola

It is confusing, but so is love and life and at times what we say just won't make sense, but I liked the way in which you wrote it. You have a nice flow to the piece.
*ME*

WOW. I loved it it was full of emotione it was very good.

I like it :)