I honestly never saw myself here in this position . right now all i want to do is scream at the top of my lungs and have you hear me pleading . i swear i would change a million things with you and me, i would've told you every day that i loved you if i knew he would push you away fathers aren't the best i know and mine has made me cry more than you will ever know he pushed you to the driveway told you ,you weren't good enough for me .so you left me there and walked away out of my path . i wanted so bad to grab you by the hand and say take me with you . you drove off in that old truck we first made love in and i saw the dust kick up in the wind. i pressed my head against the window and wished you'd turn back for me . you keep driving with tears in your eyes and a semi truck comes the other direction and you swerved and turned and flipped the car over until i get the call at four o'clock saying you were in an accident and your gone . i run out the front door and scream at the top of my lungs and my eyes burn and tears fall from my eyes but i don't even care. my dad tries to hold me and i tell him let me go you made him leave , you made him go away. it's your fault. It's your fault he's gone.i want to go back two hours ago and rewind what has hapened but i cannot pass back time i wish i could but god wont let that happen. my love is forever gone and yet i had words that have been left unsaid.I wish i could tell you one more time that i loved you and i will forever love you for the rest of my life.
I was listening to some really sad music and i thought about this poem .
