What was left

There is a place inside my self I am trying to find
There are so many answers I want to find
I feel like I need to go back in time to find what I seek
But I fear those pains and memories perhaps I am weak
So many puzzles in my life undone
So many races go by and none of them won
I can not stand all the lies and the tears
I do not want to feel the pain of those years
Somehow I must go back safely
Find a way to do it and keep my sanity
It is in the past that I must find
The truth and emotions I left behind