I am surrounded by life. everything much more graceful than it actually is. life goes by, yet i am silent. taking it all in, absorbing everything. i don't say a word. understanding is more than participation. i am there but nobody notices me. i try to stay strong, but it's closing down inside. internalizing everything. i am nothing, and you are more - being nowhere and nothing. angry and upset, being happy and excited. it all stays inside. i am being surrounded, suffocated by something i can't participate in. i am so afraid of the moment, that i cannot understand the future. i am a stranger to the world. i am overwhelmed by feelings nobody else feels because i am alone in my world. i am separated from myself, yet surrounded by everything else. i am silent, i notice nothing, but i notice everything. i am all i am, with nothing more, with nothing less. i am what i am. i am myself but i am nobody. i am you, but you are me. i am nothing that i know anymore.
