Trying hard to please. feels guilty when done wrong.
keeps you up at night. exhausted.
wasting it on trying to please. it's for me too.
i know it deep down, but it's hard to show.
want nothing but sleep -
want nothing but nothing to worry about.
anxious makes you twitch - time to breathe.
time to relax and make it better.
i am contemplating the fact that i know it will never change.
intrigued.
really wonder how everything will turn out.
cannot be alone, yet it is what i prefer.
being left alone with thoughts - might as well be insane.
do not understand everything - alone.
thoughts of that it's what keeps me awake.
everything overcrowds my mind, cluttering my thoughts with distraction.
distraction from what, you say.
i respond with focus.
it is everything i have - everything that matters to me.
there is a point always,
but never knowing the answers.
suppose you could call it creative.
i call it predictable.
i wish i could predict my life. wish i had more structure.
that is what i call my everything.
