Self inflicted

I cut myself again tonight
Just couldnt stand the pain
This depression, hatred and shame
Is driving me insane

You may well mock my actions
But you will never truly understand
Because you have never prayed to die
Or held that blade in your hand

To realise why we self inflict such pain
To fully comprehend this pain we feel
You have to go to a hell buried deep inside
And feel the wounds that time wont heal

You show contempt for my stupidity
When I reach for the knife
But when Im screaming, crying, begging for death
Its the only way to survive this life

So please do not judge me
When you see these scars I draw
I know that their ugly
But its really not my choice anymore