Evey Word That Goes Unheard

I love hearing his voice
Sometimes he gives me no choice
But to smile
When he cal me
He is like a gun
He blows my mind.
I feel so uplifted from this darkness
He makes me shine.
Spinning out of control
Waiting for the truth to unfold.
I miss him and I hate to let him go.
But he is hurting
And I am his pain.
He calls me beautiful
But I'm insane.
Confused because he loves me
He makes me want to be better.
How can I tell him
I don't want to be here forever.
And when silence comes
I feel so worthless
I blame myself for any and every thing that hurts him.
So how do I tell him this?
How do I make him okay
When I'm not okay.
I try to speak but my words get slurred.
So I wrote this poem
For every word that goes unheard.