How dose it feel

How dose it feel to get a call in the middle of the night and you answer to "I'm sorry to tell you this but your auntie has died".

how dose it feel to know that she left behind 4 kids all under the age of 11 who love there mum so much and would do anything to have her back one more time.

how dose it feel to call her kids up and hear them blaming themselves for what happened.

how dose it feel to go to her viewing and see her lying there. so cold. so uncomfortable and yet you can do nothing to help her out.

how dose it feel to hear people talking about her life while tears run down your face wishing you could have the chance to say good-bye.

how dose it feel to hear her youngest daughter cry as she says. I'm sorry mum. i didn't mean it. i need you mummy. come back. i love you.

how dose it feel to go to the burial and her mummy pick me up, and you turn around to her daughter trying to replace her with you.

how dose it feel to hang out with her and see her smiling again then 5 hours later you break her heart. you have to go home, and she is losing number two.

how dose it feel to see a little girl crying her eyes out trying to catch up to your car as it pulls out her driveway.

you wouldn't know how it feels. but i do.
it makes you feel like sh*t