I'm falling into nothingness,
this abyss is killing me
and as I look around I find
you're no where to be found
and the snow that's left on Solemn ground
is beaten in and I can't seem to find
the reason why, and this abyss is draining me,
my blood is pouring out
and I can't stop my lungs from inhaling this poison air,
I'm so intoxicated now without you there,
and I can't seem to find the reason why,
Can I find the reason why?
I'm holding on to nothingness
hoping there was more to this
than simple words and long good byes
where neither you or I could cry
like it meant anything at all,
did it mean anything at all
or am I just causing my own demise
by thinking this was more than you or I.
I'm falling into nothingness
and can you save me from abyss
just this once can I have your hand?
You always said if I needed you'd be there
you said that this time you'd really care but
I'm not sure if this is real
or am I just hoping that you feel
more than what you told me then
just tell me I'm not that one that you let go, to go and go
Don't tell me I'm the one that you could let go.
I'm holding on to nothingness
and this abyss is rising to my mouth
and I'm not choking but I feel like stopping
and the candle light is dreary
but this is more than you and I
and this is more than you and I,
and tell me now if this is real for I'm looking
but you don't seem to feel
and your heart is solemn now
and it's not beating but somehow
you said you gave it all away
but really you just threw away
The part of us that ever really meant anything at all,
it never meant anything at all to you.
Don't lie to me, I can take it,
it never meant a thing,
and all those nights with other girls you said you thought of me
but you never thought of me, you never.
And my grip is slipping on the emptiness I've held on to
and I wish I could fall and forget you
and forget you and forget.
Please god let me forget those late night calls
at 2 am in hotel halls
where you told me I meant something, you told me I meant something
but I really didn't mean a thing at all
and I'm tiered of all these lies
just tell me, I wont cry
I'm a big girl now.
And all those conversations filled with empty words
you told me you wanted me and I believed what I had heard
but the sound now is quiet,
almost so I can not hear,
but you still whisper
and I feel that you don't feel it but you swear to me it's true
yet you leave me with nothing,
just a broken piece of glass
digging deep into my back
and the blood is soaking through,
and my spine has almost snapped in two
from all the pressure that I take
and I'm still trying to fake
the smile I gave to you that day
but you still don't care what I have to say
and all those nights we stayed up late
you told me we'd make it
but we didn't make it did we?
And I'm falling into nothingness
and you're still sitting in abyss
waiting for the ocean to crash
to make some noise because my voice isn't there
and this time I wont come crawling back
no this time I wont come crawling back to you
*Well I'm not sure if I like this or not but it's how I feel, it's my life right now. Thank you for reading, if you comment I will return the favor as soon as possible. Always-
Shattered and Broken*
