Black Gypsy *

I'm caged inside these barren walls
Taunted by doors my silence calls
I scream inside a smile, a tear
Losing it all just to feel, to fear
These bitter eyes that block the way
I close my own, i wait, i pray
For a window, or light, or hand to pull through
Something that will never hurt me like you
And i glance up at all of the people i see
But i cannot forget all they've done to me
A whip, a heart, violence too late
Nothing to feel, how i wish i could hate
Hidden in corners, I'll hold onto my knees
Too broken, too vulnerable, to suppress these tears
If only i could understand just what it is I've done
I would learn to break away from these circles that i run
Deep inside i panic from the grip of each chain
I fear the cage i hide in that protects me from the pain
One day, they tell me, every bird flies free
But i cannot forgive what they've done to me.