Not the same

Its not the same as like the first time i met him
the first time i saw him, it was as if he was shining
i don't know what i saw in him
my stomach dosen't have butterflies anymore when i see him
when he wants to show me signs of love i back away
when he tries to talk to me i refuse to
feeling disgusted at myself for being so mean
but i just feel that i don't love him anymore.